Breaking a Hiatus

The last time I wrote an article, the Pandemic had barely even started. It was May 2020 — and I was losing my mind, trying to do everything at once.

Sadly, I cannot — in fact — do everything at once, no matter how good at multitasking I truly am. In 2020, I lost five stones in weight (70lbs / 31.7kgs), changed my job, got COVID (twice), and my chronic health issues worsened.

So, I took a break from writing for the first time in a decade. I’d never done it before, not since starting. And it’s been horrible. It’s not that I didn’t have more time to myself; I could listen to music and daydream or binge watch TV… But I lost a core part of me. I feel like Riley from Inside Out. I lost a crucial part of who I am, and it took away a fundamental coping mechanism for me.

The worst part about it was that once I’d stopped for a long time, I could not get back to it. No matter what I did, I just kept failing to pull through the writer’s block. It’s now been two years since I updated a novel that had been growing strong for over a year. It’s been two years since I published a fully-fledged article. And it’s been two years since my mental health was in a good place.

Photo by Jason Rosewell on Unsplash

Now, I’m here. I’m not sure how long I’m going to be here; I’m not sure if I will do good. I’m not even sure if I’m going to be able to publish this post — my writing skills have gone down the drain. But I’m going to try because I enjoy writing. I was mute for so long as a child, and I’ve become mute once again. So, it would be nice to have my voice back.



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